Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Here are the pictures.

Only at our house!

Samantha and I.

Addyson and McKayla during Halloween

McKayla being crazy


Sunday, November 16, 2008

Weekend fun!

Our weekend filled with laughter and saddness all rolled into two days! I am always amazed at how fast the weekend flies by and also at how much we squeeze into those two days. Friday night I went to my mom's house to make sure that she was okay. I am convinced that she is just fine just a little freaked out because she did not have a fix while my dad was home. I think that she was really ready for him to leave so that she could tear the house apart looking for more pills. I also just do not think that she is ever going to get better. That is very sad. My mom could very well not be here for my girls to graduate high school and that is so sad. Both her and my dad have always been a huge part of my families life. No matter what was going on I always made sure that I called her just about everyday and I always made sure that my girls spent plenty of time with her. Now I only call to make sure that she woke up that day. She cannot carry on a conversation that is worth making the effort to have so I usually just spend about a minute or two on the phone with her. Man that sounds so mean but literally that is how it feels. I did not hear from her on Sunday and around 12 noon I thought that I better call to make sure that she answers the phone. All I could think of is what if she is dead and no one knows it. I hate that feeling but I feel that any day she just may not be here. I am not sure if the rest of my family feels that way but I know I do. I hate it. I feel like I am too young to have to babysit my mom. This is something that I thought I would have to do after my children were in college or starting families of their own. But here I sit with the burden of making sure that my mom just eats something and does not just drink a shake. She seems to be determined that is all the food that she needs. She is never going to get better! She does not want to do what it takes to do so. She only takes her medicine correctly after we catch her taking it all wrong. She is still taking pills that she should not and I know that is just out of my hands. No one can make her stop killing herself. She cries to my dad that she does not want to die but yet continues on doing the things that are going to kill her. I now know that all I can do is live my life and take car of my family. She is an adult and can make her own decisions. We as her family have to either live with those decisions and take her as she is or withdraw ourselves from the situation. I do not hold a lick of hope that she is going to get or stay clean and I am never going to set myself up for disappointment again. Why should I when I have a family of my own that needs me.

Anyway, after leaving her house I picked up Samantha's friend Isela and took her to our house to stay the night. The girls had a lot of fun. Isela stayed all weekend. I will post some videos that they made outside on the trampoline. Viewer beware they might cause motion sickness! They also took some great pictures. Sunday was Mike's birthday so we went his mother's house which is always great fun. I am glad to have at least a normal mother-in-law. I am also glad that she stepped up in being there more for the girls when my mom stopped being able to have the girls over at her house. Below are videos and pictures. Enjoy!

Monday, November 10, 2008

Being sick sucks!

Well today I was not the least bit productive. I have been sick since 4 a.m. and just now starting to feel better. I have been in bed all day thinking of all the things that I could be doing with a day off and no one at home but instead I slept most of the day away. Dang Whataburger! I think that I am going to steer clear of there for a while. I should have known that we were not supposed to eat there when (a) we had to wait in line at the drive through for 15 minutes (b) They did not give us the right order and I had to go in and tell them. When we were leaving I told Mike that I am not going to go back to Whataburger because they take too long and never get things right for us. Anyway I am feeling better but still very tired. It is 8:51 and I am already ready to go to bed.
Our TV is broken so that is fun! Not that we can't go without TV but I do have a few shows that I really like to watch. Yesterday was the first day without TV and I told Mike that it was actually nice and he agreed! We got some stuff done that we needed and the house was quiet! We are going to start having one day a week that the TV stays off.
This weekend was nice but busy like always. Samantha had a softball tournament that lasted all day. Her team lost their first game but then came back to win 4 in a row and claimed first place in the 10 and under. They played two games back to back and then we went home for about 3 hours and went back out there for 3 games back to back. The team that they played got a long break before playing them and I think that even though our girls were tired they were warmed up and ready to go so they had the advantage. They won 12 to 0! We are so proud of Samantha and her team. Tomorrow they are being treated to an ice cream party at Maggie Moo's!
McKayla is doing really well. Math is really getting better and that is a blessing.
Addyson is getting funnier and funnier everyday. Today she slapped me and then said "Sorry hit you" It was in the cutest tone. She can say thank you now. Yesterday Mike took her plate for her and she told him "Thank you!" It is amazing how fast they grasp everything. She knows what to do when I tell her go find your cup. She is so smart. I know that all parents say that about their children but it is true!
Well, that is all that I have to update on as of right now. Well actually I have more but I am ready to go to bed so I am going to end.
Hope that you all have a great week.