Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Could of, should of would of!

When I think back at my life there are many things that I feel I could of, should of, would of done! I love my life right now but there is one place that I feel such a void... That is in the area of education. I am one of the only people in my department that does not have a Bachelor degree. I know that it would help me advance in the area that I am working and I really want to go back to school. I am really struggling with wanting to work and wanting to stay home with my family. I know that staying home is not an option so I feel like the best thing for me to do is to go back to school so that if I have to work then I can really help support my family better. I am still trying to figure out if online will be the way that I will go.
I love the job that I am doing but I just feel like I should be doing something else. I have a supportive role right now and I am tired of being in the back ground. I keep saying that I don't always want to be the assistant but at some point I would like to be the one that has an assistant. I have a bunch more on my mind and I will try to keep this updated at least once a week so that Sherry will have some light reading to do. I have a lot of pictures and video that I need to put on here and write about. My family is changing so fast and I will keep pictures on here to show Kelly and Matt what is going on with us. I hope that everything is going well for you guys.


Love you all,
Jen

4 comments:

Kellsotr said...

I am trying to do better on my blog too, it is not as easy as it seems like it should be!! I look forward to seeing the pictures.

sherry said...

YEA!! Some light reading is exactly what I want. As hard as it is to get Samantha to soft ball and choir (very good things) something for McKayla, I don't see how you could squeeze in school at this time. You know my opinion. I support you in your decision. I love you Sherry

judy said...

Well this is not light reading, but i feel the same empty feeling you feel. I wish i would have finished high school. I had no friends in school and really still don't (not that i ever regretting having you and stacey and being blessed with grandkids) but i know now how much education means, but it does not take sacrificing what you are doing for your girls at this point and time. I have had to bluff my way through my whole life until now i can't bluff you do have to have skills and education to make it big in anything. but i believe being the best mom and getting your kids involved in good things are the most important part of your life right now because they are only clay that you can mold at this point in your life, you are young and can go back to school at any time, but you only have 1 chance to direct your girls into the right direction, they may stray away later, but i believe if it hadn't been for mother and sherry you and stacey would not have turned out the way you have. they took you to church and out of school when "you" needed to be homeschooled. i owe alot to sherry for that. the point is you can't be everything you have 3 small girls and school right now would take you away from them and they need you right now. ****these are tears so i am going to quit now. i love you and support whatever you decide to do. Love mom....

Kellsotr said...

Okay, I am so way beating you in this blog thing, post already!!